DEAR DEIDRE: I’M stockpiling sleeping pills from my doctor and planning an overdose.
I have been depressed for years and turned to cocaine to block it out.
I did manage to quit the drugs but turned to them again late last year and have hit them hard.
I’m upset all the time and cry when I am alone, almost daily. I am working from home doing a job in sales which I hate.
I’m not doing that well at it either.
I’m a 32-year-old man. If I lose this job it’s another reason to end things. I don’t see a way out nor do I particularly care any more.
My friends just think I’m being silly about everything.
I’ve been suicidal for years and haven’t spoken to anyone about how low I really feel. I can’t live like this much longer.
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DEIDRE SAYS: I’m sorry you’re feeling so distressed.
You have slipped back into drug taking but you quit them once and you can do it again.
Get help through wearewithyou.org.uk who offer free and confidential support.
I would also urge you to reach out to CALM, the Campaign Against Living Miserably (thecalmzone.net, 0800 585858).
If you take that first step and reach out you can turn things around.
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